Smile

Decided that it had been ages since I had done an in-depth post, so here we are.
I went to go see Young Guns a couple of days ago and that was awesome. T
hey played at the Facebar in Reading so it was a tiny stage. I got to the front pretty much straight away and managed to destroy my leg because it was smashed against the stage so many times. I also found myself on-stage at some point during Deaf Havanas set; falling at the singers feet is always fun.
There was no barrier until Young Guns came on and the decided to randomly put one up - which kinda helped with the falling-on-stage situation I had going on. Although, of course it also meant that I got a nice set of barrier bruises on my ribs.
I sang with Gus and held his hand a lot; lovely stuff. Such a good live band.
Apart from that I've really done nothing. I've slept a lot, and the few days after the YG gig I haven't been able to move much anyway due to injuries and pulled muscles and general all body pain ahah.
To make the pain worse I fell down the stairs today and smashed my back. Managed to wind myself too; that was the worst bit, not being able to breathe for a few minutes. Fuck pain in your back, not breathing is kinda scary.
I smashed up my hand too, so now that hurts no matter what position I hold it in. YAY for pain haha.
Same old same old really, I need money haha.
Might have to sell my house because my family got fucked up and it's not going to ever fix itself, and it's slowly been getting worse over time.
Even though it's been getting worse over time, I've found that my reactions have become less and less stong. No crying like there was at the start a couple of years ago, now it's just kinda like "Oh, for fucks sake have I not had enough of this?"
I've become jaded with it all really, it's just annoying. The most annoying bit is that everyone who's been really fucked up with all this are all the innocent ones in this. Fuck life.
This summer owes me so fucking much, not even kidding.
I came across a new internet phenomena today. It intrigues me a lot because it's one big mind fuck that plays with some people but not others.
I think I'm one of those people that sees it and isn't bothered by it, but some people get nightmares etc. I was gonna post the picture on here, but it's kinda pointless without reading the story behind it.
It's all psychosomatic, so it will affect more people than others. It's almost like one of those chain letters you used to get a lot when you were little - not one of the ones that's like "if you don't re-post this etc" but one of those emails that was a horror story passed on purely for scaring purposes.
This one I found is known as "Smile.Dog" or "Smile.jpg" and the link is here;

http://www.aetherparanormal.com/blog/the-curious-case-of-smilejpg-by-jml/

Some people can't see all of the elements, but I can. Someone in the comments also said that the creature in it doesn't look like a dog to her, but it does to me. I looked a little closer, and it is missing a few dog-like elements, but it still doesn't creep me out.

Most people who see it will say it's photo-shopped, which maybe it is, but when this first came out and circulated the internet, photoshop was still really new and couldn't do what is seen in the photo. It's also strange that not many links can be found to the picture.

I think it's all fake, but hey, tha'ts just me. I don't think a picture like this can fuck people up.

I like stuff like this. I like that there's someone out there with enough imagination to creep millions of people out.

You still speak of day old hate, though your whole world has gone up into flames, and isn't it great to find that you're really worth nothing, and how safe it is to feel safe.

-Rosa-xo

Prom & Tumblr

So, Prom. Yeah. If I'm honest it was exactly what I was expecting. It was okay - luckily for me my friends managed to make it quite fun (:
Dancing with Claire, Josh, Mily and Ems was certainly entertaining. I think my feet were broken by the end of the night, my heels were ridiculous.
Halfway through I went to MacDonalds with a few friends because we were fucking starving and really thirsty, and Maccy D's food and drink was cheaper than what they had in the hall. Well, the food at prom was free, but it wasn't to everyones tastes ahah.
I like how the DJ announced that it was time to play a bit of "Rock n Roll" and then put Kings Of Leon on :')
It made me laugh aha. I would not put KOL in the genre of Rock n Roll xD
I'm surprised there were some songs I could sing along to :D It made me happy that I'm not a total chart music loser.
Fraser had a tiara for most of it. I wish I had a picture. If I find one I am posting it here for sure.
It was nice seeing everyone dressed up - especially the girls. You could see that they had made so much effort for the night.
So yeah. I'm glad I went (:
I have a Tumblr! :D
I know, I know, you're saying "Why the fuck do you need another blog" WELL, I'm not gonna use it as a blog, I'm gonna use it as a place to post the random little things that are too long for Twitter but not in depth enough for here. Yay for comprimise!
The link is here; http://rosacandy.tumblr.com/ So wooooooooooo (:

Rosa and Ems <3

You talk about skeletons in your closet, well there's a fucking cemetery in mine.

-Rosa-xo

Musics.

I'm in a really lazy mood today, so here's a breakdown of my iTunes :D


iTunes;

How many songs in total? 6137

How many hours/days of music? 16 days.

[Sort song by title.]

First song? A-Punk by Vampire Weekend.

Last Song? 911 by Eminem

[Sort by time.]

Shortest song? We Are Already Here by William Control - 0:12

Longest song? Mix Tape VOL.1 by L'Amour La Morgue - 57:32

[Sort by album.]

First album? About A Burning Fire by Blindside.

Last album? 59' Sound by The Gaslight Anthem

[Top 5 most played songs.]

1. You Had Me At Hello by A Day To Remember

2. Stick Stickly by Attack Attack!

3. Lyrical Lies by Cute Is What We Aim For

4. Toxic by A Static Lullaby

5. Tonight We Dance [Acoustic] by Yashin

[First song to come up on shuffle.]

Pieces Mended by The Used

[Search the following and say how many songs come up.]

Death - 168 songs

Life - 86 songs

Love - 294 songs

Hate - 83 songs

You - 715 songs

Sex - 35 songs

Here's a song, it reminds me of when we were young, looking back at all the things we've done, you gotta keep on keepin' on. Out to sea, is the only place I honestly, can get myself some piece of mind. You know, it's getting hard to fly.

-Rosa-xo

And Though They Stitched Her Back Together, They Left Her Heart In Pieces On The Floor.

I want a wallet. I loose so much money if its just in my pocket, and purses are always big and bulky - its like designers think that if you want a purse you must want to make a fashion statement as well. No I just want somewhere to put my fucking money and will still fit in my pocket.
Hence the wallet wanting.
It has been way to hot recently for my liking, the sun melts me x_x
However, I really want to go to the beach. Hey, if its gonna be hot, I might as well be near water, right? There's a beach I'm hoping to go to with my friends - I went once when I was about 12 or 13 and I can't remember for the life of me where it was. I went with a club I used to go to, so I can't even ask my Mum aha.
I have the feeling it was somewhere in Cornwall, but I'm not sure. The beach itself was quite small, and there was a cliff. We went in the height of summer on a really hot day and there was hardly anyone there; I don't think it's very well known.
It was seriously the nicest beach I have ever been to in England. The sand was really fine and white, and the water was pretty clear. I remember you had to climb these really steep stairs to get to the top of the cliff where the parking was, and there was an ice cream shack up there too (:
I'm gonna try and hunt down where this place was, because I really want to go there again. I don't know if it was even Cornwall, it could have been Devon or somewhere.
Damn my memory! I wish I had paid more attention as to where I was back then ahaha.
Also, before anyones like "Oh, cliffs, it must have been Dover" it wasn't, because these cliffs weren't white haah. They were normal rock. I wish the were white though, that would have narrowed down my search some what :')
So yeah, if anyone thinks they know where I'm talking about, please tell me because I'm desperate to find this place again.
PS; I know it was in the South West.

EDIT; I found it!
Holywell in Cornwall

Those cliffs are a lot higher from the beach, ahaa.

And her husband was one of those blokes, the sort who only laughs at his own jokes, the sort that war takes away, and if there wasn't a war, he left her anyway. When the world falls apart, some things stay in place.

-Rosa-xo

This Is A Raccoon

I just had my last HPV jab and it hurt, so Bandito here makes me feel better.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right, I hope you have the time of your life.

-Rosa-xo

Green Day

I only have 3 exams left. I like this fact, I like it a lot.
I have nothing to do all summer though. The only thing I have planned is Reading Festival. That's only 3 days. I really wanna go to Brighton, so lets see if I can drag someone to go with me.
However, last night I went to go see Green Day! :D
It. Was. Awesome.
I have been waiting 8 years to see those guys - half my life. They didn't let me down.
Their set was ridiculously long, something like 2 and a half hours, and even though during some of that time I couldn't breathe due to greedy bitches stealing my space, it was still amazing.
They played every song I wanted them too, including Give Me Novacaine <3
If I'm honest, I went into the stadium not expecting much. I don't know, I think I was scared that they couldn't live up to my 8 years of wanting, but they fucking did. They exceeded my expectations. I would 100% go see them again, I hope they tour soon haha.
I went with my friend Callum, and unfortunately his bag was completely emptied, bastards took everything including the tickets [which I wanted to put on my wall ):] his sisters hairspray and his medication. So much hate for those people D<

Out of body and out of mind, kiss the demons out of my dreams, I get the funny feeling that's alright, Jimmy says it's better than air, I'll tell you what - drain the pressure from the swelling, this sensation's overwhelming, give me a long kiss goodnight, and everything will be alright, tell me that I won't feel a thing... So give me Novacaine.

-Rosa-xo

This Is The Future.

Jobs. They never sound like fun.
But I really, really, really need money. Like, really.
So, I kinda need to get a job haha. I can't find anywhere that's hiring though. It's really annoying. I can't even work in like, the local cafe as a waitress or anything because I couldn't work with meat. I close off my own options pretty quickly.
I know I want to be a music journalist once I get my life sorted and my a-levels done, but, I was thinking today, what happens after that? I'm not gonna lie, music journalism is a young persons game. It will last me into my early 30's, I might even make it until I'm 35.
So what the fuck would I do then?
The a-levels I'm planning to take don't leave much room for anything to be quite honest, and I know this. I suppose I'll just have to take it as it all comes. I could go into a different branch of journalism I suppose. Anything with English I know I can do haha.
Ouuuch, I just got a really bad headache D<
Anywho; I took my English paper 2 today and my last RS exam. English was easy, a lot easier than I was expecting actually. RS was harder than I expected haha. I didn't understand quite what some of the questions were asking me to do, but I managed to blag my way through. In the end, I think I'll end up with a B in RS, and I can live with that.

A Day To Remember have the job I really want.

Yeah, thats the job I really want. I wish I had musical talent. I would adore having a crowd sing along with music my band created. It would make my life. But it will never happen, because I can't play instruments or sing. And it breaks my heart.

I see straight through that smile, straight through that painted face, don't think that I can't tell, which one of you is against me. Come on come on, you know this isn't what we planned on, come on come on, tell me we'll be okay - we'll be o-kay! Lets go back, lets go back to a time where I still felt I had family. I have the greatest faith in fools; I turned my back and out came the wolves.

-Rosa-xo

You're Not Hardcore; You're Just A Cunt.

I went to a local gig last night. I didn't review it - I just went for teh lulz.
Together We Hunt played, and even though their vocalist has left they still played an awesome set. Guitarist Billy did a fantastic job with stepping in to do vocals, and it paid off because they were the best received band of the night.
It was my first time seeing A Sailor's Grave, and they were pretty good too. I didn't know quite what to expect, but they managed to impress me.
However, one of the bands who played before TWH, "Disgust" acted like they wanted to ruin the night. They were such cunts. If people are sat down / standing at the side of a mosh pit, don't get them involved. Seriously. They don't want to be, so leave them alone. They tried to shrug off their stupidity by saying "that's how a hardcore show works," so, what? People at hardcore shows like kicking 12 year olds in the face and making them bleed? I didn't know that, but hey, thanks for telling me. You learn something new everyday. When they got kicked out they then complained that "this was the reason the scene is dying" ... Nah mate, it's not the reason, you're just generally a cunt so get lost. Your bands shit too, so don't come back and try again.
They then tried to start a fight, and failed. Then decided they'd attempt to start shit on Facebook, and failed. I'm sorry, but if you can't take criticism, don't start a band, because you will fail. There are going to be people who don't like you and think you're retarded, and you have to put up with it.
I don't see their band going very far, tbh.
On a ... I was gonna say happier note, but it's not really. On a different note, I have a maths GCSE tomorrow. Failure here I come! I don't think I even have a calculator, FML. I give up with this academic shit.
I don't really mind about these exams. Everyone around me is getting really stressed, but I'm not. I dunno, maybe  I'm missing a vital function in my brain that should be making me panic, but yeah. TBH, the ones panicking and trying hard will most likely be the ones who pass, while I'll fail them all.
Oh well, I've decided that whatever I get in my GCSEs will have to do, and I'm gonna work extra hard on my A Levels.

Wishing I was someone else, it's my own fault that I'm fucked up but I still worry about my mental health. I've g-g-got a stutter and the memory of a goldfish, my mind is melting into mush because I barely use it... Wishing I was someone else, but I'm not, I'm myself, and I really need some cash, cause chasing dreams don't pay you jack.

-Rosa-xo

Reasons Why I Die Inside - One of Many

So, I wanted to write a post despite having nothing interesting to write about. I didn't wrestle any crocodiles, my velociraptor didn't arrive in the post yet, and nobody gave me any strawberries. [Yes, Mily, that was a comment about you :')]
However, I do have a week off at the moment, and even though it's only just begun I love it already. No exams FTW! I have an exam everyday next week, fml. After that though I only have an exam a week for three weeks, so that's ok xD
My Green Day tickets are getting delivered to my house tomorrow. I don't know why, but they have to be delivered as a special package, not posted like normal tickets. Yeah, retarded. So now I have to spend all day in the house waiting for the package man to ring my doorbell and give me my tickets which will apparently be in some super secure box. Srs, they're only Green Day tickets, calm down.
MY COMPUTER KEEPS CRASHING WHILST I'M PLAYING GAMES. I have got myself addicted to Sims 3 [again] and the game keeps crashing without saving all my amazing progress. Every time it does it, I die a little inside.
It must look a little something like this -

Hahaa, that face was based off the rage meme / hyperbole and a half version and it was mighty fun to draw :')

BUT YES, SRSLY IT KILLS ME

If someone could like, not make it happen? Yeah. Cool.

Meh. I shall maybe report more soon.

I dare you say, it to my face, you always keep pushing, but in silence, you take what's ours, and make it yours... Try break my will, but you always keep breaking the rules, I'll break your legs.

-Rosa-xo

"Perfect" Boyfriend.

So, I was on Brutal Turtles blog the other day, and he had written a post about what he qualities he would like to see in his "perfect girlfriend" and it got me thinking about what I'd like in a guy. This list is gonna be really long, and I'm sorry :(

1. Like the same music. Music is a huge part of my life, and it'd be a gigantic shame if my boyfriend didn't want to join in at like, gigs and stuff. So, they have to like moshing (: I have a really weird, diverse range in my music taste too, so they have to like people from Yashin, The Blackout and Young Guns, to My Passion and Kill Hannah, and then all the others like A Day To Remember, You Me At Six, Four Year Strong, and then some of the ones that don't fit in with all those other genres like Owl City and Adam Lambert mwahaa.

2. Be happy to just... sit there. Now, when I say sit there, I don't mean doing nothing staring into space. I mean, be willing to just sit on the sofa and watch loads of crappy movies, without having to fill every moment of silence with conversation. I personally am not the best at carrying conversations on, so there are times when I just wanna sit there in a comfortable silence. This sounds really retarded, but I think you get what I mean. Just be able to sit there and cuddle!

3. Have some sense of fashion. I don't personally care about "fashion" per se, but I know what clothes look good and what don't. They have to make an effort with what they wear; not look like a tramp. You could say that I go out looking like a tramp, but hey, I try xD ... this makes me sound hypocritical, but I know what I mean.

4. Care about their hair. This might sound really hypocritical coming from me, but, surprisingly enough, I do actually care about what my hair looks like. I just tend to tie it up because I need it cut ahaha. I like loads of different colours in hair, so an interesting dye job is good. Messy hair just above the ears too with the classic side fringe. Yeaaaaah. [See point 9 for an expansion on this.]

5. Not wanna do loads of things that require money. I have no money. I rarely have money. So, unless they're willing to pay for me for literally everything, they gotta like just walking around haha. Or window shopping. I prefer to save what money I get for gigs (:

6. Be able to put up with my retarded mind. I do, so they can too xD They have to be able to put up with my fear of birds, seriously, if a bird comes flying at me I WILL use them as a shield. And they have to be able to put up with my stupid, childish fear of the dark. Its not all the time. And I'm not afraid of the dark as such, but more afraid of what my imagination does to the dark, like, making shadows into monsters haha. I'm the sort of person who thinks their duvet will protect them, no joke, I can't even stick my leg out for fear of claws dragging me down and then something eating my eyes.

7. Know about "teh internetz". 4chan, memes, viral videos. Yeah. They all make me laugh, so it would be nice if they could join in (: ... I suppose this also applies to using emoticons, like all the faces you see in here xD I love those, so if you use those I love you :D ... and lolspeak. Become fluent in lolspeak. Also, a carry on from this would be; Type properly. At least when they're speaking to me over MSN/texts. I cannot stand text talk, it drives me crazy x_x so learn to type normally, or there shall be no MSN or texts xD [The exceptions to this rule are when you are using emoticons like the faces, or speaking in lolspeak ^-^]

8. Be able to sing / play an instrument... generally be creative. This stems from my love of music. I personally can't sing or play an instrument, so it would be great if they could ^-^ The instruments are specifically guitar and or piano. I love both of those instruments so much. Acoustic guitars are pure love. As are pianos. Yaaaay (:

9. Don't be too expectant. When I come see them, they shouldn't always expect hair and make up to be done. I'm really lazy when it comes to those things. I will try to make an effort but.. I won't always look glamorous xD of course I won't expect their hair to be perfect either. It goes both ways (:

10. Be confident. I like people who can walk into a crowd of strangers and talk to them like they're friends. If you can do that, then I already admire you. I also love being cuddled, so if they're willing to cuddle me in public, then that makes them 100x better (: [Also, this has a knock on effect. Being cuddled is only nice when the person is taller, so, all my boyfriends MUST be taller than me. Sorry.]

OMG guys, I managed to keep it to 10 points! Obviously, nobody is perfect, and I'm not expecting any future boyfriend to be without flaws. It would just be nice to have all of the above xD
And, as always, there are exceptions to the rule, so, we shall see.

You used to captivate me by your resonating light, now I'm bound by the life you left behind. Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams, your voice it chased away, all the sanity in me. These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just to real, there's just too much that time cannot erase...

-Rosa-xo

BUY MY WINDOWS

I HAVE A SONG IN MY HEAD. and it's making want to claw my face to get it out, and it needs to leave, I'm so tempted to like, cut my face and make it bleed out. Or pass out, whichever comes first.
- imagine me clawing my face whilst singing "IT'S COMING HOME, IT'S COMING HOME, IT'S COMING, FOOTBALLS COMING HOME" cause that is actually what's happening right now. -
I have noticed that adverts are annoying me a lot more recently, infact, they annoy me so much, I'm going to act one out for you.

-Me on the sofa, not really paying attention, staring off into space.-

-Man jumps from the side of my TV screen-

"BAM! HEY THERE, I'M HERE TO SHOVE UNNECESSARY INFORMATION DOWN YOUR THROAT ABOUT HOW OUR WINDOWS ARE CHEAPER THAN THE PEOPLE WITH A BIRD LOGO! YOU SHOULD GET OUR WINDOWS BECAUSE WHO KNOWS WHEN A RHINOCEROS BEING RIDDEN BY A VELOCIRAPTOR COULD SOAR IN THROUGH YOUR OLD WINDOW AND MAKE GLASS FLY EVERYWHERE AND PIERCE YOUR EYES AND MAKE YOU CRY IN A POOL OF YOUR OWN BLOOD AS IT TEARS ABOUT YOUR HOUSE DRAWING SMILEY FACES ON THE WALLS AND LEAVING A TRAIL OF PEANUTS, WHICH IF YOU'RE ALLERGIC TO PEANUTS WOULD SUCK CAUSE YOU WOULD TOTALLY DIE. BUT YEAH, OUR WINDOWS STOP ALL THAT, AND ONLY FOR £13,00000000 SO YOU MIGHT AS WELL DO IT, CALL NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW!"

-By this point, I am curled up into a ball, hugging my legs, my eye twitching whilst muttering the words "evil rhino velociraptor creature" over and over again.-

Yeah. I know it pisses you off too, don't lie to me. But don't worry, it's okay, I put on a cape and killed all the people who come up with those awful advertisements, and if you don't believe me I'll send you a finger in the post. You're welcome.
Whilst I was typing all that my dog decided he was going to bite the wall... I'm not sure why. I think a beam of light hit it from the sun on the window [irony?] and his dog brain decided that it was an evil creature here to steal his soul and it would be better for everyone if he sat there and bit the wall.
My wall is covered in dog slobber now.
"Ohai dere, I'm a doggeh and I iz not all here. I be slightly stupidz, but it'z ok, cause all your soulz are belong to me."
Yeah, we're fucked.

HI, I'M BARRY FUCKING SCOTT, 

AND I'M HERE TO FUCKING 

RAPE YOUR FUCKING FACE. 

ALL YOUR SANITY ARE BELONG TO ME.

That's another one of those adverts that makes me want to kill. A bloodthirsty, murderous rage.

And that is a Velociraptor. Don't pretend you don't love it. Go on, pet it. He'll just nom your hand a face a little bit.

Does exactly what it says on the tin.

Make records that have more than one good song, the dinosaurs will slowly die, and I do believe no-one will cry, I'm just fucking glad I'm gonna be there to watch it fall, prehistoric music industry.

-Rosa-xo

"And I was all like..."

My cat was sitting in my seat and he was acting like a sausage cat. I was all "Yo, cat, you need to move cause thats my seat and I wanna eat my toast there, so you need to move yo furry butt"
and my cat was like; "Naaaaah, today I'm gonna be a sausage cat, and I know I usually run away from you the moment you walk into a room, but if I become sausage cat all my fears leak away and I no longer feel the need to leg it from you"
So, not wanting to be mean to sausage cat, I sat on the floor and ate my toast.

So yeah, that was an interesting start to my day.

AND THEN I HAD A SPANISH EXAM WHICH I FAILED.

And on the way to my spanish exam my brain was all "I'M MELTING IN THIS STUPID HEAT"

So, yeah that was even less fun.

AND DURING MY SPANISH EXAM I WAS TIRED AND HUNGRY.

And my house smells funny.

And IT'S TOO HOT.

Picture to describe my life;

                                                  

I'm dying in the hot sun and my brain is leaking spanish.

Drawn by Allie at http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com go check her stuff out; she's hilarious.

So... yeah.

I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar, I've never made a bet but we gamble with desire, I've never lit a match with intent to start a fire, but recently the flames have been getting out of control, call me a name, kill me with words, forget about me, it's what I deserve.

-Rosa-xo

Carrot Sticks Aren't Yummy.

I'm gonna start eating more healthily.
And by healthily, I don't mean carrot sticks, because they're pretty gross. I like carrots, but eating them in stick form? No taa.
I decided to stop eating so much crap this morning when I was getting my breakfast, and I had to stop myself from pouring a glass of Pepsi to drink. You know you're addicted when its the first thing you want. You'll be glad to know I had orange juice instead.
I guess I was thinking about it because yesterday I was having a conversation about healthy food with Ems and Josh, rather ironically, as we made brownies. [The best brownies you'll ever taste; may I add. They had M&M's and sprinkles in and melted in your mouth omnomnom.]
But yeah, speaking to those two made me realise that I don't have the most healthy of lifestyles - the only exercise I get is walking to and from school and walking my dogs. Not a great amount.
And I suppose that wouldn't be too bad if I knew how to control my eating habits - but I don't. I eat when I'm bored, I eat my feelings, I eat if food is there. I can't stop myself.
I'll be watching TV and I'll suddenly get a craving for ice cream, and I'll have to go get some.
It's atrocious.
I used to eat really well as a kid. My Mum used to make sure every dinner had at least 3 different types of vegetables in, and I had to clean my whole plate or I wasn't allowed to leave the table.
That was back when I used to be skinny.
The moment I went to secondary school however, it all changed. I stopped cleaning my plate, I stopped eating my vegetables, I started eating more crap instead.
THAT'S WHERE IT ALL WENT WRONG!
So, I need to rectify this situation before I end up obese.
On a happier note, I'm on study leave now, thank god. I like sleeping in (:
I've done my first exam - RS - and it was nice and easy.
Things are going pretty good.
I've also found a new love for Adam Lambert.

It's a shame Joshes and Rias faces got cut off.

Yeah, it's plain to see, that baby you're beautiful, and there's nothing wrong with you, it's me, I'm the freak, but thanks for loving me, cause you're doing it perfectly.

-Rosa-xo

I'd Have To Shoot You; And No-One Would Hear A Sound.

Oh man, I haven't written a blog in ages. I'm not sure why... I suppose I didn't really have anything interesting to report.
I had my art exam. Our art teacher decided that when we only had 2 hours left he was gonna slag everyones work off. That was nice of him. He didn't like my piece but I don't care; as long as I get an overall C tbh.
That competition I entered in? Yeah.. I'm pretty sure I've lost it haha. I'm like, 8th. It's quite heart breaking really. It's everything I've ever wanted. ... Ah well. Maybe next time?
I was also supposed to go to a gig last night - Kill Hannah and My Passion - but I didn't. Fucking bummer. Two of my favourite bands :/
Still got Reading Fest and Green Day lined up though - so that's ok (:
I have 3 people that I need to sign my study leave card. One will do I just keep forgetting to ask... the other will do it when the other two have done it haha. It's the last one who's causing me a problem. Fucking maths teacher. He should go die the lying cunt. "Do 2 papers and I'll sign it." I'VE DONE ABOUT 4 YOU BASTARD.
Uuuuugh. I just want summer now; I don't care anymore. ><
What else has happened... Oh, we have the general election hahaa. That was interesting. Hung Parliament. Hmm. We shall have to see how that all works out, won't we?
Me and my friend Callum might be organising a gig; so that should be good.
We're trying to get a few local bands then one slightly bigger headliner. I'm not sure if it will all go to plan, so I'm trying to not get too excited about it.
Where's the sun gone? It was mega sunny a few weeks ago, now it's all back to rainy cloudy coldness xD
I get my hair done at the end of Julyyy (:
Purple and pink n stuffs. Not sure how I want it cut though. Hmmm.
COLLEGE. I can't wait. ^_^~
I also get the other side of my lip done soon (: Then I shall have two lip piercings :D
Yaaaay hahaa.
I'm gonna stick a picture of my art final piece in here (:

You can't really see it too clearly - but by the guitar it says "Words Fail Me" and then it's all surrounded by lyrics... I like to think it's very thought provoking hahaa.
Before you ask me what lyrics are there - there's a HUGEEE mixture, people such as; A Day To Remember, AFI, Yashin, Justice, Snow Patrol, Five Finger Death Punch, Set It Off, Jamie T, Mayday Parade, Cute Is What We Aim For, The Blackout, My Passion, B.o.B, Eminem... yeah and tonnes more but I can't remember who haha.
I really wanna watch a film. I don't know what one though hahaa. I don't watch many films really... My attention span isn't big enough. I get distracted and end up pausing it, then forgetting about it for a few hours, then when I finally remember again I've forgotten half the story xD
Yeah, I suck haaa.
I want to meet some new people. Anyone know nice people? I'd like to meet them kplzthx.
Still pissed off/upset about that competition. I really thought I had a chance. ):

Bruised and bloody, I'm lying on the ground, and I am aware that I let the poor girl down. Now I'm dying as a message to the town; this is what happens, if you fuck around. ... She said I'm a user, and she's a loser with a gun.

-Rosa-xo

Let's Pretend Marshall Mathers Never Picked Up A Pen

The explanation for the title is; IT'S A LYRIC.
There, done.
I have not had the patience to write a blog recently.
I went out last night for a friends birthday. It was actually really fun (:
I'm going out again tonight. Yaaaaaaaaaay for things to do ^^
Young Guns are playing at the Facebar in July. That is fucking love right there. <3
Hopefully reviewing that beast.
GUYS GUYS GUYS LOOK AT THE POST BELOW AND WATCH THE VIDEO, YEAH?
YOU WOULD ACTUALLY MAKE MY LIFE
It's for a competition to be the face of the podcasts at this years Download Fest <33
I don't wanna do it just to meet people, I wanna do it to get a leg up in the music world.
I would probably die on the spot if I won <3
My dog is actually being really weird right now. His head is turned to the side and he's watching the horses on TV. Silly puppy <3
I say puppy, he's gonna be 7 in July ahaha.
I'm gonna put some pictures from last night in <3

Becki and Rosa <3

Becki and Rosa posing xD <3

So yeeeeeees. There is more, but my computer is being majorly slow and it took about ten minutes just to put those two in, no joke.

Go watch that video, be a babe, help me win <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X5oEx-FYroM

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now...

-Rosa-xo

Download Lowdown Competition Entry

GO WATCH THIS VIDEO! "Like" it too (:

I'll give you SO many hugs, seriously <33

Sorry About That

That last post was Claire.
Don't worry, I shall kill her soon.

Part One

Today was an interesting day








I cried.

I Tried To Be Perfect But Nothing Was Worth It

I slept so much today. I went to bed at like, 10pm last night and didn't get up till about 11:45pm today haha. Best sleep I've had in a while though.
I'm gonna have to write the review without my notes, but I managed to get a hold of all the names and stuff, which was gonna be the hardest bit to do.
So I'm sorted on that front haha.
My sister is being very loud. Shoot her.
I want to go see A Day To Remember. And I wanna see Parkway Drive. Hmm.
I want summer now haha.
I really like all the sun we've been having recently (:
I have nothing exciting to report! My life is so lame.
Someone come on a road trip with me?

I find the map and draw a straight line, over rivers, farms and state lines - the distance from here to where you'd be.

-Rosa-xo

This Rage I Cannot Let Go

SHIT SHIT SHIT I HAVE LOST MY NOTES
LOST MY FUCKING NOTES FOR A GIG
A GIG THAT HAD A RIDICULOUS AMOUNT OF BANDS
AND MY DEADLINE IS TOMORROW
FUCK FUCK FUUUUUCK
There is only one chance for me to get them back, as long as Claire still has them on her phone ><
TEXT ME BACK CLAIRE GOD DAMNIT! SAVE ME.
Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh.
PURE ANGER.

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On a happier note, I went to go see AFI a couple of nights ago. It was so, damn, good. The crowd was so good and AFI are such good performers... it wasn't the best set, because personally they didn't choose all of their best songs... although, I won't complain because they played loads of their old stuff and that made me happy.
I also got lots of good hugs off of various people, and a Crash Love tattoo-transfer. [Call me childish, but I fucking love it.]
Easter hoildays FTW.

I'm still in a rage.
[That's why this blog is called what it is - it's an AFI lyric AND expresses my mood! Pure genius haha.]

I guess you must be going deaf, or you're just listening to your friends less. I guess it must have gone to your head, or you're just thinking of your friends less.

-Rosa-xo

The only thing that's going to bother me is that you'll all call yourselves my friends.

Long title because I love that lyric.
I have got nothing interesting to tell you haha, I'm so lame.
I went to a party last night... I have no crazy stories to share from that I'm afraid!
Two weeks off now, thank God. I want to catch up on sleep and relax.
AFI ON TUESDAY! I'm so excited :D it's gonna be SO good!
My cat has become addicted to milk.
I GOT A READING FEST TICKET! Yaaaay (:
I'm really excited for that too. Three days of lovely people and good music. Such a win.
Ignorance annoys me to a great extent. If you don't know what you're talking about, shut the fuck up.
My sister is watching that "Over The Rainbow" thing, she gets addicted to stuff like this... not to sure why. I find them all generic and boring, and they all lick the judges' arses. Maybe that's my jealousy of the fact they can sing coming out xD
I'd love to be able to sing and play guitar, but alas, my voice is shit as is my co-ordination, so that cancels both of those things out haha.
How hard do you think it will be for me to get Work Experience at Kerrang! Magazine once I've turned 18? Hmm. I'm thinking of emailing them now, so I KNOW I have a place xD
I would kill to work at that place.
That, or Metal Hammer... I'd say NME as well, but they do more Indie stuff, which I'm not so knowledgeable in.
It's been raining far too much for my liking. SUN NOW.
I also need to dye my hair but I have no money :/ I wanted it re-done for AFI but that isn't gonna happen damnit. I'll just have to make the best of what I've got haha. Some sucky reddy-brown colour.
I want a new kitteh. A pretty ginger one please, so I can make fun of it xD
Naww, ginger kittys are cute. I dunno what I'd call him... and it would have to be a him, because girl cats are mean. They always seem to be vicious, unless it's Ems' cats, they're nice xD
I have also decided that I detest vodka. Jaeger-Bombs though, damn they're good. I'll have loads of those.

I walked into your house this morning, I brought the gun from our end table, your blood was strewn across the walls, they'll find you on your bathroom floor when I'm done... You should have killed me when you had the chance.

-Rosa-xo

Hidden Behind The Lines.

I went somewhere with cows today.
Lots of cows. And birds and daffodils.
Don't you wish you were me?
I also got really dizzy from spinning around.
And watched "How To Train Your Dragon."
That, btw, it such a good film.
The dragon acts like a cat. CUTE.
This is a really weird layout for a blog.
NEW LINE EACH SENTENCE PLZ.
I have a 3 days at school this week.
And a half-day Thursday.
That doesn't count in my eyes.
THEN 2 WEEKS OFF.
Yes, yes yes. I need it haha.
I have so much work to catch up on.
AFI ON THE 6TH. So excited.
It's gonna be sweeeeeet. <3

I'm bleeding out, sign your life on the dotted line, sign your life on the dotted line. Liar, liar, liar, LIES!

-Rosa-xo

I Owe You Loads.

I could not be bothered to blog about nothing this past week. I'm sorry if this upset you.
I don't even really have anything to tell you today...
I went to a gig last night, Together We Hunt again.
Yeah, it was good. Review soon. It's gonna take ages to write, there was about 20 bands there X_X
Face raping pet dogs is fun. Give it a go.
On the way back from the gig last night, me and Claire got stopped by these guys asking us if we knew where they could buy alcohol.
They then proceeded to ask us out, and were amazed when we told them we hadn't drunk alcohol / done weed / smoked a cigarette whilst we were out.. [It was about 12:30am by this point haha]
You don't need to drink every time you go out for it to be fun, I'm rarely in the mood for drinking anyway.
I still have loads of work I owe people. I just can't be bothered anymore.
I WANT SUMMER ALREADYYY.
And I want more people, more friends... a bigger group of people to surround myself with.
PEOPLE COME JOIN IN WITH MY GROUP OF EXISTING FRIENDS AND HAVE FUN YEAH.
That was my official advert. Reply at your own risk.
I want this summer to be epic. <3
This is really short so have a gander at a couple of my 365's

Yeah, I'm still doing that. It's really hard to come up with new ideas though. Oh well, it's challenging I suppose,
LINKS;

http://www.flickr.com/photos/rosacandy/
http://www.formspring.me/RosaaaCandy
http://twitter.com/Rosaaa

Yeahhh boi.

Mondays I sleep away, Tuesdays I lay awake, Wednesdays, they are the worst, Thursdays I reminisce, Fridays I see your face, and I can't breathe...

-Rosa-xo

Answer That And Stay Fashionable.

My eyes won't focus. It's really annoying. I guess I'm over-tired.
I went to go see Alice In Wonderland last night with a couple of friends. It was alright, not as good as it's hyped up to be. I guess I expected a little bit more from Tim Burton haha.
We came back to mine as I had an empty house, and ate pizza at like 1am hahaa. I was dead, I didn't realise how tired I was until I sat down X_X
We also had a bottle of Vodka, but I didn't drink much. I wasn't in the mood for drinking really.
School tomorrow. Only 5 more weeks left.
Well, only 5 weeks if I get my study leave card signed T_T - which I bet I won't because my teachers will all go on epic bitch-mode.
I want to wear hi-top trainers to my prom, because tbh I'd rather spend £60 on shoes I'll wear until they fall apart, rather than £35 on high-heels I'll wear once and forget about, but there's a "trainer-ban" on my prom. I don't know if the shoes I wanna wear count as trainers per-se, I bet they will though.
Sods fucking law.

This campaign is criminal, criminal scream fucking insane, bring me the contract, sign me up to blow these fuckers away...

-Rosa-xo

Heartless?

Not much has changed since yesterday.
I still have a cough.
The internet bores me now.
It's actually a travesty and should be illegal.
I want AFI now. MAKE IT SO.
I've tweeted so much today it's ridiculous.
I also got loads of Formspring questions, which was good!
http://www.formspring.me/RosaaaCandy
Go give it a go, yeah (:
I went for a 2 hour walk today.
I must have looked stupid singing to my music.
OH WELL. I was happy.
BORING POST OVER.

I've been swallowed by this wreck that you call a life, I'm damaged from the inside, I've been broken. Don't threaten me with what you think I feel - if you could read my mind you'd be in tears.

-Rosa-xo

*ahem* Everybody's out to get me! Any moment could be my last!

Worst. Cough. Ever.
Somebody come and make me better please. I don't like having my chest and throat ripped a apart. Not fun ><
I need a hug... I won't cough on you I promise xD
I also had the worst sleep ever last night, I must have stared out of my window for about 2 hours, looking at nothing because I simply couldn't sleep.
I then decided that this didn't work, so I wrote out all the lyrics to various A Day To Remember songs all from memory. I think I got "I'm Made From Wax, Larry, What Are You Made Of?" "You Had Me At Hello" "The Plot To Bomb The Panhandle" "Fastforward to 2012" and "The Price We Pay" before I finally began to feel sleepy.
The title to this post in-fact, relates to that. Go you if you knew where I got the title from! xD
Quite an achievement, even if I do say so myself, ahaa.
I actually have nothing to tell you. I had the day off today because of that cough. Uh... yeah that really is it.
Meh.

So run like hell, sleep with one eye open, you can forgive or forget, you will tell everyone of the damage done, too bad you can't stop me, you can't stop me now. I'll be there just to watch you fall, so don't push me - I've got nothing to lose. 

-Rosa-xo

Love Story

My friend Becki wrote this story on my arm in RS today whilst the rest of the class watched a movie. I promised I'd post it here - so I'm gonna now spend ages typing it all out xD
The story on my arm; ... wow, I look like I have a retardedly shaped body in that picture haha. It was my elbow bending in a weird way, I swear! xD

The Foolish Traveller
One day, the friendly traveller was on his way through town when when he met a beautiful lady. Instantly he fell in love...
She said "If you love me so, then please, give me all your money."
The traveller gave her all his money with a smile on his face! Next, she asked for his clothes, limbs, and even his eyes! The happy traveller gave all these things up with a loving smile on his face.
He asked; "Please, are you happy enough to marry me?"
She said "No, however, I will give you a special gift..."
The traveller, only a head now, smiled, crying tears of joy! "Nobody has ever given me a present before!"
She left him a note, which he could not see, saying fool.

So yeahs. That was it. xD
I didn't say it had a happy ending, did I?!
She wrote loads of sutff on my arm, including my favourite Yashin lyrics, a picture of a penguins back, Batman and Robin, a fox, some stars, her name, three doughnuts, "nom nom" and a music note followed by "You need to listen to yourself more *giggle*"
Muahaa. She is the queen of arm-art. YES THAT IS A REAL THING.
I'm actually really hungry right now.
I have also realised how much I miss listening to My Chem. They're actually really good - I've been listening to their old stuff rather than The Black Parade, because Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge is actually an epic album, I don't care what people say.
This weekend is gonna be alright. Claire and Callum are coming round on Saturday for pizza and a movie. We'll get the pizza but then probably end up on ChatRoulette the whole night. That site entertains me for hours (L) xD
Also, if anyone has any money I could borrow have for tattoos, it would be greatly appreciated.
Cheers me dears.

She won't stop me put it down, so get your gun and meet me by the door... But don't stop, if I fall and don't look back, oh baby don't stop, bury me, and fade to black...

-Rosa-xo

Hakuna Matata

I DYED THE TIPS OF MY RED HAIR PURPLE. Hahaa, I have no idea how it's gonna turn out. Good I hope!
Baby photos I hear you say?

Hahaa, yes, that is me as a baby. I had to choose one for my yearbook photo, and I chose the first on in the end. Rosa was a chubby baby :3

I slept a lot yesterday/today. Yashin exhausted me.

I don't want school tomorrow. Only 6 more school weeks until Study Leave, then after that, no more school ever. Just College. Win!

SUMMER PLEASE.

You say "I love you boy" but I know you lie. I trust you all the same. I don't know why. 'cause when my back is turned, my bruises shine; our broken fairytale, so hard to hide.

-Rosa-xo

Yashin & GOTK - The Morning After The Night Before

Oh. My. God.
Last night was more than eventful. So many things happened... it was just. I have no word to describe it. And, my feet are crying/bleeding because of my DAMN SHOES. I now hate shoes. We should all walk barefoot xD
So, yes, last night... I'll start from the beginning.
The gig. It was amazing. Yashin never fail to astound me. The only reason I'm a fan is because of their live performance - I saw them as a support band ages ago and fell in love. That shows a band has real talent, the fact that they can win over new fans with their live shows.
They are also the nicest guys ever; I've met them four times now and each time they've been as lovely as the last. Once, when my friend Jake had hurt his leg in the mosh and couldn't walk, they spent about 20 minutes trying to find a lift home for him.
They used me and my friends in a promo shot yesterday. They had to prove to their sponsors [Monster Energy Drink] that they have the Monster logo at all their shows, so we stood next to Kevin and held massive inflatable monster cans looking like goons. Win? I also got the best hug ever from Kevin <33
Glamour of the Kill were really good too, the crowd loved them. They weren't as good as Yashin though, in my eyes ;)
So yeah, after all that we left the venue and we're dying of hunger and thirst, so to McDonalds we went! We stayed in there about half an hour in all, warming up and just generally getting our hearing back xD
We left there and walked down to Camden Tube Station, which was about 5 minutes away. This is where it all went wrong... I'm not 100% sure what exactly went wrong, I think we got on the wrong train, and this just seemed to act as the catalyst for the night. I will admit, at this point I was glad we were on the wrong train, because we met the funniest drunk guys in the world. They called Kalvin "Robin Hood" and said that Dylan was gay xD
They kept making poof jokes and saying that "16 year olds shouldn't be out this late and that we should be in bed, or getting an education" Dylan has a video I think, so if he loads it onto YouTube, I'll link you hahaa.
So yes, usually, getting the wrong train isn't such a big deal, because you just get a different train for back the way you came, simple, right?
You'd think that. It's not that simple when it's now 1am in the morning, and all the stations are starting to close. We had a conversation with a train man that went something like this;
Us; "Where's the train that will take us to Kings Cross?"
Him; "Oh, the last one left 10 minutes ago, there's no more until morning now."
Us; "omgwtfbbq are you serious?!" 0_o
Him; "Yes. You can get that train -points at train- to Golders Green and then get a the N5 Night Bus to Euston? That's as far as I can get you."
Us; "Oh, okay, thanks for your help."
SO WE WENT ON THAT TRAIN. And we got to Golders Green. And we got the N5 Night Bus. And that took us to Euston. So, thinking that was the end of our troubles, we walked up to the man there, and had basically the same conversation all over again, only this one ended differently. Rather than telling us to take another Bus, he said that Kings Cross was a 5 minute walk away. He gave us directions and off we went.
It's about 2am now, and it's raining. We're all still quite happy though, we've stuck together and we're entertaining each other. It's not that bad... yet.
We get to a station. But it's not Kings Cross. It's Mornington Crescent. WE'RE RIGHT BACK NEAR THE UNDERWORLD - RIGHT BACK WHERE WE STARTED.
The guy there is slightly more helpful, he tells us that there are no more trains at all. So we come up with a plan to put our money together and get a Travel Lodge - one room for all of us, just so we can be warm and have somewhere to sleep. The train man goes to see if he can find any information on where the nearest one is. He says there isn't one, but there is a Hostel. Uh, ok... so we find the Hostel. -enter lots of walking here- but it turns out they're fully booked. Conversation went like this.
Us; "Can we have one room between 7 of us please? We're all 16 [lies] and we promise to be quiet. [the truth haha]
Him; "I'm really sorry, but I'm fully booked." -the room we are in is SO warm.-
Us; "Oh... are you sure? We'll take anything."
Him; "Yeah, I'm really sorry. There's another Hostel round the corner from here? It's on-top of a bar, go try there."
Us; "Okay, thanks."
SO OFF WE GO. We find the other Hostel, right where he said it would be. Only, they're full to. Great.
So now, to our epic back-up plan! McDonalds! One of the train guys said it was open 24 hours.
So we set off - we know where it is, and by now it's about 2:30am - 3am. It takes us a long time to get there, because our feet are dying and bleeding and crying and not wanting to move ever again.
It was on the way to McDonalds that me and Claire spotted two prostitutes. They must have been fucking freezing, but they kept on going.
We got to McDonalds. Turns out the train guy was wrong - it shut at 1am. So now, we literally have no-where to go.
So we walk. We walk in the general direction of Euston, as Dylan Dad has now rung Dylan up and is coming to get him, and said he'll pick him up at Euston.
We walk some more. See some tramps. Lots of drunk guys. We get to Euston.
A PREMIER INN! We run towards it, and ask how much it is for a room. £97. £97?! THAT IS REDONCULOUS. We don't have that much money - we had about £50 between us.
So, they end up letting us stay in the little Foyer bit, which was really nice of them. It was f-r-e-e-z-i-n-g though, we were right next to the doors which obviously kept opening if anybody moved too much, or somebody was coming in to go up to their room. People coming through would give us weird looks, and some random guy in a tuxedo said "Evenin' ladies" hahaa.
Dylan, Jack, Terri and Matt got a lift home - we said they could go because well, they had a chance, so why not let them take it? We shouldn't all have to suffer. There's 4 of us left now - Me, Claire, Kalvin and Abbie.
We spend about 3 hours in this freezing cold Foyer place, all on one sofa, kind of sleeping, kind of shivering. All the while trying to be quiet so the guys don't kick us out.
We made it to 5:30am, when a guy said Euston Station was open again. We ran. I couldn't feel my feet because of a horrible mixture of cold and pain.

Euston Station with hot chocolate. 5:39am is a time I never want to see again.

Omg, it was so warm in the station. I could have died because the warmth made me so happy. We got a hot chocolate and made our way back to Paddington, which was surprisingly easy. Tube Stations are nice when nobody's there. We got to Paddington, at about 6:30am and caught the 6:42am train back to Burnham.
And that was my night.
But, I hear you say, are Yashin worth it?
Yeah, they really are. I'd do it all again in a heartbeat.

For you I'd bleed myself dry... Look at the stars, look how they shine for you, and everything you do...

-Rosa-xo

Yashin & GOTK

YASHIN IS TONIGHT. SO EXCITED. Mmm, yes please.
It's raining though, which is NOT good. STOP RAINING PLEASE.
I have done nothing today hahaa. I have walked my dogs and done my hair.
OHOHOH and taken my 365 picture :D Which is;

It's a really, really bad quality, because my blood sugar is failing today, so I had the shakes xD I apologise.

I have to catch the train at 4:30pm so we can get into Camden asap, as there's been a problem with a couple of the tickets, so that's gonna be fun to sort out hahaa.

OMG MY REVIEW IS UP!

http://www.maidenhead-advertiser.co.uk/leisure/article-15336-review-reading-battle-of-the-bands-first-heat/

Yeahhh! Go read it please (:
I'm quite proud of it, muahaaa.
So, yeah, that's all I've got for today, expect a nice long post tomorrow about one of the best bands in the world ^_^

Look what's become of you, you try to take me down and fail to reason why, and these words binding forever, and through these eyes remember you...

-Rosa-xo

We're In Like Sin

I haven't done a blog in two days.
I'm sorry >< You can shoot me if you wish.
I sent in the review of Friday, expect a link soon innit (:
I am to impatient. SOMEONE GIVE ME PATIENCE.
... and now I have Take That in my head. (8) Have a little, patience...
Not as bad as what I've had in my head most of the day - Achey Breaky Heart.
Don't break my heart, my achey breaky heart, I just don't think it understands...
Ahaa, I can tell you, it gets rather annoying to say the least.
DUDE, THIS IS SPEED BLOGGING AT IT'S FINEST. I did all this in like, 40 seconds cause I'm sleepy and I want to go to bed.
YASHIN AND GLAMOUR OF THE KILL TOMORROW. Hells yes. I am so excited, I cannot wait (L)
So many people going too. I cba to list em all here, maybe tomorrow, yeah?
So, that's all for now.
Ciao.

I'm running through your veins like a habit you can't kick, here's a secret confession from a lifelong obsession...

-Rosa-xo

Wish I Stayed

I have done my Biology! Why is this important, I hear you ask. Well. Just because. It's important because I actually DID homework for once. BE PROUD OF ME! It's pretty damn good even if I do say so myself ;D It's three pages long too. 3! I know! That's so much hahaha.
I have also written the article about Sports Relief AND half of the Review of Fridays gig. YAY.
Ah dear, I epic fail xD
I got really pissed of at school today. THERE ARE SO MANY TWATS. I'm so happy I'm leaving. Roll on college <33
Wow... I came in here like "I WILL WRITE LOADS" and now I'm completely dry of stuff to say.
SHORT POSTS FTW.

I don't own my own clothes, but I own my mind, and it's not what you've lost but it's what you find.

-Rosa-xo

I sang with every word. See, I got lost in the sound.

FML. It's almost 7pm and I haven't done those fucking essays. I hate myself sometimes. I need to stop procrastinating. It's not laziness. I just get a block. It makes me want to smash my head into a brick wall.

I have really done nothing this weekend. I had nothing to do. Kinda sucked.

Yashin on Friday though (: I actually cannot wait. It's gonna be so good.

I know I've been saying this a lot recently, but I really need the summer. I just want to... I can't even describe it. Just long lazy days pissing about on the field with my friends, never ending pizzas, long walks that start off with a purpose but end up with us sleeping in a field because we get to lazy and tired to walk back... Yeah. That's what I want. <33

If someone could find a way to give that to me like, now, it would be greatly appreciated.

Also someone to cuddle would be nice. I like cuddles.

Uh huh.

I screamed so loud, 'cause that's exactly how I felt. It broke me out, and I gave up all my plans. I set them down, 'cause I really need to see the sun again. Don't worry, cause I'll be just fine.

-Rosa-xo

I won't tell you how to live your life, so please stay far away from mine.

I went to that gig last night. I missed the first two bands because the fucking trains decided to all break down - what should have been a 20 minute journey ended up taking over an hour. Ridiculous.

So now I have to write the review with what I have, luckily I saw 3 out of the 5 bands. 

Together We Hunt were good as always, but they lacked something... I think it was the crowd, they didn't seem to want to get involved very much. Not the bands fault. A fight also broke out in the mosh pit - not fucking cool. Luckily TWH didn't let it stop them putting on a good show like some bands did.

Strike Offensive were pretty good, their crowd never stopped moving. They just had something that everybody loved. The lead singer also reminded me so much of Rob Flynn from Machine Head that is was crazy.

The last band, The Last Word... well. They weren't good. The actual songs themselves weren't bad, and the lyrics I could hear sounded pretty cool, but the singer couldn't sing. He was one of those guys who switches from singing to screaming a lot, which sounds pretty damn cool when you can do it properly, but he, unfortunately, could not. He was also too focused on looking "cool" to the crowd, he was one of the guys involved in the fight earlier and didn't seem to let it drop. He directed his lyrics about killing towards the guy he was fighting - not cool. He sacrificed putting on a good show for his pride, and that is fucking lame. Seriously, next time? Let it drop. You didn't look cool standing on stage threatening to slit someone's throat, and spitting in the other guys face was lame. You deserved to have beer chucked over you. Also, keep your shirt on next time. You're too scrawny and thin to pull of the topless look.

I'm not defending the other guy, of course. He shouldn't have carried on the fight either. I guess that's boys for you.

Hmm. Everyone there last night seemed to be paired up with someone... it was kinda depressing actually, haha. Sorta reminded me that I have no-one. I used to not really care, I can take care of myself, but it's been getting to me recently. Meh. Summer's coming up... maybe something nice will happen to me. At least, I hope it does haha.

So, my school have settled for the "Dress To Impress" theme for prom. I'm not surprised really. It's simple and easy, I suppose. But, surely you'd dress to impress at prom anyway? Maybe that's just me... I'd much rather do something slightly different, like Masquerade, but whatever.

They keep looking at crazily expensive places to hold it though, and that makes no sense to me. Sure, if you spent £2500 on the venue the actual building would look nice, but you would have blown your budget completely. You would have no money for the little extras that make it special, like decorations and shiz. People are already complaining about the possible £15 ticket and yet they still demand these expensive venues. Yeah, that's fine, you can have a nice venue, just don't complain when the tickets are about £30! You lot need to get some understanding of money, I swear. I feel like I'm the only one who actually see's the consequences if my actions when it comes to stuff like this.

SUMMER PLEASE. I need you. Whenever I see the sun out it makes me so happy. Funny how something so simple can change my mood so much.

I can't wait for Yashin next week. It's gonna be so fun with all my friends.

I also want AFI now. I'm ridiculously excited for that.

Ah, dear me...

♥♥♥

If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't... and contrary-wise, what it is it wouldn't be, and what it wouldn't be, it would, you see?

-Rosa-xo

Painting Flowers

I have lost my nosestud. THIS IS NOT GOOD. NOT GOOD AT ALL ><
Fuccck sakes.
But yeah, good news is I'm reviewing a gig tomorrow (: It's been too long since I've done one, I'm so excited <33
Battle Of The Bands at the Facebar in Reading. It should be a laugh (:
Another good thing about tomorrow is I get to watch all the boys making fools of themselves. It's happened before, it'll happen again... I also get a hug off Zandro ^_^ He demanded I include him here, so I shall.
Zandro plays the drums and he likes it when girls wear thongs. Whether he's drunk or sober, he won't talk to your face, he'll talk to your boobs. Yay for Zandro!
I took a foundation maths paper today - it was an insult how easy it was. One of the questions was - no joke - "Write 1070 in words" ... I MEAN SERIOUSLY?! Come on! Fucking bastards.
So, er, my school has finally got around to organising their prom. I HAVE TO WEAR A DRESS. This is not cool. I hate wearing dresses. I sit like a man too much to pull a dress off. I also have to wear high heels... that's not so bad.
I get a "plus 1" with my ticket and everyone is like "Oh cool, I can bring my boyfriend!" Well... I can't cause I don't have one. Woo. I have no idea who my plus one will be.
Go look at my Flickr and cheer me up.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/rosacandy/

And ask my a question on Formspring (:

http://www.formspring.me/RosaaaCandy

Cheers me dears.

Try to open up my eyes. I'm hoping for a chance to make it right. When I wake up, the dream isn't done, I wanna see your face and know I've made it home. If nothing is true, what more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you...

-Rosa-xo

The Lobster Quadrille

I got the soundtrack to the new Alice In Wonderland movie today, and I actually love it haha.
I have loads of random pictures I need to Twitpic, I'll do it tomorrow. It's already 9:49pm - seriously where the hell has the time gone? Stop running away from me please.
I got an extension on those essays until Friday ^_^ I won't do them again. I know I won't. I might just be like "Oh, I'm really sorry, I'll hand then in Monday?" and then do them like, last thing Sunday.
I WANT COLLEGE NOW. I was talking to my friend Jake today and he has the same feelings - he wants Summer and College now just like me (:
I have no ideas what to do for art. I thought Work Rest and Play would be a really easy topic, but it's damn hard! I might just, like stick loads of pictures of my 365 in there haha.
On that subject neither my Mum or my Mum's best friend realised that this was a picture of my eyes -

They were both really confused when I said it was me haha. I personally don't see why they'd get confused, it's obviously me! Such fools.
It did make me laugh when my own Mother didn't recognise me though xD
I think that's all my interesting stuff for today. I'm gonna link you to my formspring - you know what to do ;D

http://www.formspring.me/RosaaaCandy

"There must be some sorta way outta here" said the Joker to the Thief. "There's too much confusion - I can't get no relief."

-Rosa-xo

-coughs-

I
cannot
stop
coughing.
Please kill me.
Today started off good, but by the end I just wanted to go home and sleep. But of course, it's already 9:00pm and I haven't done the 2 essays I needed to do, or the practice paper [which was another essay] or any of my art.
So, all in all, I'd class that as a fail.
I really like waking up with the sun coming through my window though. The morning sun - it's got a different light to it than if you were to wake up at like, midday. Trust me, I sound crazy, but it does haha.
I found out I had wonky eyebrows today xD I took my flickr picture, and there it was haha. I've never noticed before, and neither have any of my friends who commented on it when I told them, so meh. It's just sort of annoying.
I feel like giving up on it, really. It won't get anywhere.
I NEED TO DO MY ESSAYS so this post is gonna be mainly lyrics. Ah well.

And people say you dye your hair and wear tight jeans, that doesn't mean that you can't scream, or like loud noise, you got a choice you have a voice. ... Mad at the fact your Dad is an addict, your friend takes pills he thinks it cures sadness, I'm not here to attack or make you kids panic, I just think it's tragic the way these kids have it.

-Rosa-xo

It Was Written In Blood.

I HAVE HAD SO MANY DIFFERENT SONGS STUCK IN MY HEAD TODAY. It went from 'Down' by Jay Sean to 'Drop The World' by Lil' Wayne to 'Torch Song' by AFI to 'It Was Written In Blood' by BMTH.
Seriously, I need to get my head checked out.
I had such a good day today. I woke up so happy, I think it had something to do with the fact that there was actually SUN! I never thought something so insignificant could make my day so much better <33
I also opened up a Formspring! Now you can ask my anything, and it's all completely anonymous if you want it to be (:

http://www.formspring.me/RosaaaCandy

So yeah, go ask me some interesting questions innit (:

I fail at doing Essays. I have two that are in for Wednesday - they are not gonna get done.

I also fail at doing art, but I've known that for a while now ;D

Unicorns and rainbows and all that jazz.

12th of March now, kthxbai.

It was written in blood on a fucking suicide note, the night before he died. It was written in blood, it was written in blood, oh my god it was written in blood.

-Rosa-xo

Epicle.

I had to babysit some really little kids today (:
The youngest was one and a half, and her sister was 4. They are the cutest children ever. I had to watch NickJR for the first time in ages - my sister used to watch it when she was younger, but ever since she turned about 7 it just kinda... stopped. It was strange listening to the simple story-lines filled with morals and life-lessons all over again.
There was also a baby cup that I couldn't open... ridiculous. I know it's supposed to be baby-proof, but seriously D;
I'm really tempted to fill this post with lyrics haha. In-fact... I am going. to.

Disgusted by your weakness, you have no right to live

To know you is to hate you, but your life's yours to give

You monkey see you monkey do

You're always doing what they tell you to

You're such a puppet on a string - You don't get it!

I won't bow to something that I've never seen

I can't believe in something that doesn't believe in me

I'm not blood of your blood

I am no son of your God

I've no faith in your fate

yet still I find salvation

you think you have the answers to every last detail

in your eyes you are the victor

in mine you've all but failed

Five Finger Death Punch lyrics. I would really love to write these lyrics all over my school's walls, especially the verses. They apply to quite a few people there. 

Flickr picture today also contains those lyrics -

They're the faded lyrics in the background, and the ones in black are the chorus.

The link to my Flickr is http://www.flickr.com/photos/rosacandy/ just incase you were wondering :P

I'm done with promises. I'm taking blood oaths. Feels like you could kiss my imperfections, my imperfections away. ... I feel immortal, and I want to make you feel the same...

-Rosa-xo