Smile

Decided that it had been ages since I had done an in-depth post, so here we are.
I went to go see Young Guns a couple of days ago and that was awesome. T
hey played at the Facebar in Reading so it was a tiny stage. I got to the front pretty much straight away and managed to destroy my leg because it was smashed against the stage so many times. I also found myself on-stage at some point during Deaf Havanas set; falling at the singers feet is always fun.
There was no barrier until Young Guns came on and the decided to randomly put one up - which kinda helped with the falling-on-stage situation I had going on. Although, of course it also meant that I got a nice set of barrier bruises on my ribs.
I sang with Gus and held his hand a lot; lovely stuff. Such a good live band.
Apart from that I've really done nothing. I've slept a lot, and the few days after the YG gig I haven't been able to move much anyway due to injuries and pulled muscles and general all body pain ahah.
To make the pain worse I fell down the stairs today and smashed my back. Managed to wind myself too; that was the worst bit, not being able to breathe for a few minutes. Fuck pain in your back, not breathing is kinda scary.
I smashed up my hand too, so now that hurts no matter what position I hold it in. YAY for pain haha.
Same old same old really, I need money haha.
Might have to sell my house because my family got fucked up and it's not going to ever fix itself, and it's slowly been getting worse over time.
Even though it's been getting worse over time, I've found that my reactions have become less and less stong. No crying like there was at the start a couple of years ago, now it's just kinda like "Oh, for fucks sake have I not had enough of this?"
I've become jaded with it all really, it's just annoying. The most annoying bit is that everyone who's been really fucked up with all this are all the innocent ones in this. Fuck life.
This summer owes me so fucking much, not even kidding.
I came across a new internet phenomena today. It intrigues me a lot because it's one big mind fuck that plays with some people but not others.
I think I'm one of those people that sees it and isn't bothered by it, but some people get nightmares etc. I was gonna post the picture on here, but it's kinda pointless without reading the story behind it.
It's all psychosomatic, so it will affect more people than others. It's almost like one of those chain letters you used to get a lot when you were little - not one of the ones that's like "if you don't re-post this etc" but one of those emails that was a horror story passed on purely for scaring purposes.
This one I found is known as "Smile.Dog" or "Smile.jpg" and the link is here;

http://www.aetherparanormal.com/blog/the-curious-case-of-smilejpg-by-jml/

Some people can't see all of the elements, but I can. Someone in the comments also said that the creature in it doesn't look like a dog to her, but it does to me. I looked a little closer, and it is missing a few dog-like elements, but it still doesn't creep me out.

Most people who see it will say it's photo-shopped, which maybe it is, but when this first came out and circulated the internet, photoshop was still really new and couldn't do what is seen in the photo. It's also strange that not many links can be found to the picture.

I think it's all fake, but hey, tha'ts just me. I don't think a picture like this can fuck people up.

I like stuff like this. I like that there's someone out there with enough imagination to creep millions of people out.

You still speak of day old hate, though your whole world has gone up into flames, and isn't it great to find that you're really worth nothing, and how safe it is to feel safe.

-Rosa-xo

Prom & Tumblr

So, Prom. Yeah. If I'm honest it was exactly what I was expecting. It was okay - luckily for me my friends managed to make it quite fun (:
Dancing with Claire, Josh, Mily and Ems was certainly entertaining. I think my feet were broken by the end of the night, my heels were ridiculous.
Halfway through I went to MacDonalds with a few friends because we were fucking starving and really thirsty, and Maccy D's food and drink was cheaper than what they had in the hall. Well, the food at prom was free, but it wasn't to everyones tastes ahah.
I like how the DJ announced that it was time to play a bit of "Rock n Roll" and then put Kings Of Leon on :')
It made me laugh aha. I would not put KOL in the genre of Rock n Roll xD
I'm surprised there were some songs I could sing along to :D It made me happy that I'm not a total chart music loser.
Fraser had a tiara for most of it. I wish I had a picture. If I find one I am posting it here for sure.
It was nice seeing everyone dressed up - especially the girls. You could see that they had made so much effort for the night.
So yeah. I'm glad I went (:
I have a Tumblr! :D
I know, I know, you're saying "Why the fuck do you need another blog" WELL, I'm not gonna use it as a blog, I'm gonna use it as a place to post the random little things that are too long for Twitter but not in depth enough for here. Yay for comprimise!
The link is here; http://rosacandy.tumblr.com/ So wooooooooooo (:

Rosa and Ems <3

You talk about skeletons in your closet, well there's a fucking cemetery in mine.

-Rosa-xo

Musics.

I'm in a really lazy mood today, so here's a breakdown of my iTunes :D


iTunes;

How many songs in total? 6137

How many hours/days of music? 16 days.

[Sort song by title.]

First song? A-Punk by Vampire Weekend.

Last Song? 911 by Eminem

[Sort by time.]

Shortest song? We Are Already Here by William Control - 0:12

Longest song? Mix Tape VOL.1 by L'Amour La Morgue - 57:32

[Sort by album.]

First album? About A Burning Fire by Blindside.

Last album? 59' Sound by The Gaslight Anthem

[Top 5 most played songs.]

1. You Had Me At Hello by A Day To Remember

2. Stick Stickly by Attack Attack!

3. Lyrical Lies by Cute Is What We Aim For

4. Toxic by A Static Lullaby

5. Tonight We Dance [Acoustic] by Yashin

[First song to come up on shuffle.]

Pieces Mended by The Used

[Search the following and say how many songs come up.]

Death - 168 songs

Life - 86 songs

Love - 294 songs

Hate - 83 songs

You - 715 songs

Sex - 35 songs

Here's a song, it reminds me of when we were young, looking back at all the things we've done, you gotta keep on keepin' on. Out to sea, is the only place I honestly, can get myself some piece of mind. You know, it's getting hard to fly.

-Rosa-xo

And Though They Stitched Her Back Together, They Left Her Heart In Pieces On The Floor.

I want a wallet. I loose so much money if its just in my pocket, and purses are always big and bulky - its like designers think that if you want a purse you must want to make a fashion statement as well. No I just want somewhere to put my fucking money and will still fit in my pocket.
Hence the wallet wanting.
It has been way to hot recently for my liking, the sun melts me x_x
However, I really want to go to the beach. Hey, if its gonna be hot, I might as well be near water, right? There's a beach I'm hoping to go to with my friends - I went once when I was about 12 or 13 and I can't remember for the life of me where it was. I went with a club I used to go to, so I can't even ask my Mum aha.
I have the feeling it was somewhere in Cornwall, but I'm not sure. The beach itself was quite small, and there was a cliff. We went in the height of summer on a really hot day and there was hardly anyone there; I don't think it's very well known.
It was seriously the nicest beach I have ever been to in England. The sand was really fine and white, and the water was pretty clear. I remember you had to climb these really steep stairs to get to the top of the cliff where the parking was, and there was an ice cream shack up there too (:
I'm gonna try and hunt down where this place was, because I really want to go there again. I don't know if it was even Cornwall, it could have been Devon or somewhere.
Damn my memory! I wish I had paid more attention as to where I was back then ahaha.
Also, before anyones like "Oh, cliffs, it must have been Dover" it wasn't, because these cliffs weren't white haah. They were normal rock. I wish the were white though, that would have narrowed down my search some what :')
So yeah, if anyone thinks they know where I'm talking about, please tell me because I'm desperate to find this place again.
PS; I know it was in the South West.

EDIT; I found it!
Holywell in Cornwall

Those cliffs are a lot higher from the beach, ahaa.

And her husband was one of those blokes, the sort who only laughs at his own jokes, the sort that war takes away, and if there wasn't a war, he left her anyway. When the world falls apart, some things stay in place.

-Rosa-xo

This Is A Raccoon

I just had my last HPV jab and it hurt, so Bandito here makes me feel better.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right, I hope you have the time of your life.

-Rosa-xo

Green Day

I only have 3 exams left. I like this fact, I like it a lot.
I have nothing to do all summer though. The only thing I have planned is Reading Festival. That's only 3 days. I really wanna go to Brighton, so lets see if I can drag someone to go with me.
However, last night I went to go see Green Day! :D
It. Was. Awesome.
I have been waiting 8 years to see those guys - half my life. They didn't let me down.
Their set was ridiculously long, something like 2 and a half hours, and even though during some of that time I couldn't breathe due to greedy bitches stealing my space, it was still amazing.
They played every song I wanted them too, including Give Me Novacaine <3
If I'm honest, I went into the stadium not expecting much. I don't know, I think I was scared that they couldn't live up to my 8 years of wanting, but they fucking did. They exceeded my expectations. I would 100% go see them again, I hope they tour soon haha.
I went with my friend Callum, and unfortunately his bag was completely emptied, bastards took everything including the tickets [which I wanted to put on my wall ):] his sisters hairspray and his medication. So much hate for those people D<

Out of body and out of mind, kiss the demons out of my dreams, I get the funny feeling that's alright, Jimmy says it's better than air, I'll tell you what - drain the pressure from the swelling, this sensation's overwhelming, give me a long kiss goodnight, and everything will be alright, tell me that I won't feel a thing... So give me Novacaine.

-Rosa-xo

This Is The Future.

Jobs. They never sound like fun.
But I really, really, really need money. Like, really.
So, I kinda need to get a job haha. I can't find anywhere that's hiring though. It's really annoying. I can't even work in like, the local cafe as a waitress or anything because I couldn't work with meat. I close off my own options pretty quickly.
I know I want to be a music journalist once I get my life sorted and my a-levels done, but, I was thinking today, what happens after that? I'm not gonna lie, music journalism is a young persons game. It will last me into my early 30's, I might even make it until I'm 35.
So what the fuck would I do then?
The a-levels I'm planning to take don't leave much room for anything to be quite honest, and I know this. I suppose I'll just have to take it as it all comes. I could go into a different branch of journalism I suppose. Anything with English I know I can do haha.
Ouuuch, I just got a really bad headache D<
Anywho; I took my English paper 2 today and my last RS exam. English was easy, a lot easier than I was expecting actually. RS was harder than I expected haha. I didn't understand quite what some of the questions were asking me to do, but I managed to blag my way through. In the end, I think I'll end up with a B in RS, and I can live with that.

A Day To Remember have the job I really want.

Yeah, thats the job I really want. I wish I had musical talent. I would adore having a crowd sing along with music my band created. It would make my life. But it will never happen, because I can't play instruments or sing. And it breaks my heart.

I see straight through that smile, straight through that painted face, don't think that I can't tell, which one of you is against me. Come on come on, you know this isn't what we planned on, come on come on, tell me we'll be okay - we'll be o-kay! Lets go back, lets go back to a time where I still felt I had family. I have the greatest faith in fools; I turned my back and out came the wolves.

-Rosa-xo