Reasons Why I Die Inside - One of Many

So, I wanted to write a post despite having nothing interesting to write about. I didn't wrestle any crocodiles, my velociraptor didn't arrive in the post yet, and nobody gave me any strawberries. [Yes, Mily, that was a comment about you :')]
However, I do have a week off at the moment, and even though it's only just begun I love it already. No exams FTW! I have an exam everyday next week, fml. After that though I only have an exam a week for three weeks, so that's ok xD
My Green Day tickets are getting delivered to my house tomorrow. I don't know why, but they have to be delivered as a special package, not posted like normal tickets. Yeah, retarded. So now I have to spend all day in the house waiting for the package man to ring my doorbell and give me my tickets which will apparently be in some super secure box. Srs, they're only Green Day tickets, calm down.
MY COMPUTER KEEPS CRASHING WHILST I'M PLAYING GAMES. I have got myself addicted to Sims 3 [again] and the game keeps crashing without saving all my amazing progress. Every time it does it, I die a little inside.
It must look a little something like this -

Hahaa, that face was based off the rage meme / hyperbole and a half version and it was mighty fun to draw :')

BUT YES, SRSLY IT KILLS ME

If someone could like, not make it happen? Yeah. Cool.

Meh. I shall maybe report more soon.

I dare you say, it to my face, you always keep pushing, but in silence, you take what's ours, and make it yours... Try break my will, but you always keep breaking the rules, I'll break your legs.

-Rosa-xo

"Perfect" Boyfriend.

So, I was on Brutal Turtles blog the other day, and he had written a post about what he qualities he would like to see in his "perfect girlfriend" and it got me thinking about what I'd like in a guy. This list is gonna be really long, and I'm sorry :(

1. Like the same music. Music is a huge part of my life, and it'd be a gigantic shame if my boyfriend didn't want to join in at like, gigs and stuff. So, they have to like moshing (: I have a really weird, diverse range in my music taste too, so they have to like people from Yashin, The Blackout and Young Guns, to My Passion and Kill Hannah, and then all the others like A Day To Remember, You Me At Six, Four Year Strong, and then some of the ones that don't fit in with all those other genres like Owl City and Adam Lambert mwahaa.

2. Be happy to just... sit there. Now, when I say sit there, I don't mean doing nothing staring into space. I mean, be willing to just sit on the sofa and watch loads of crappy movies, without having to fill every moment of silence with conversation. I personally am not the best at carrying conversations on, so there are times when I just wanna sit there in a comfortable silence. This sounds really retarded, but I think you get what I mean. Just be able to sit there and cuddle!

3. Have some sense of fashion. I don't personally care about "fashion" per se, but I know what clothes look good and what don't. They have to make an effort with what they wear; not look like a tramp. You could say that I go out looking like a tramp, but hey, I try xD ... this makes me sound hypocritical, but I know what I mean.

4. Care about their hair. This might sound really hypocritical coming from me, but, surprisingly enough, I do actually care about what my hair looks like. I just tend to tie it up because I need it cut ahaha. I like loads of different colours in hair, so an interesting dye job is good. Messy hair just above the ears too with the classic side fringe. Yeaaaaah. [See point 9 for an expansion on this.]

5. Not wanna do loads of things that require money. I have no money. I rarely have money. So, unless they're willing to pay for me for literally everything, they gotta like just walking around haha. Or window shopping. I prefer to save what money I get for gigs (:

6. Be able to put up with my retarded mind. I do, so they can too xD They have to be able to put up with my fear of birds, seriously, if a bird comes flying at me I WILL use them as a shield. And they have to be able to put up with my stupid, childish fear of the dark. Its not all the time. And I'm not afraid of the dark as such, but more afraid of what my imagination does to the dark, like, making shadows into monsters haha. I'm the sort of person who thinks their duvet will protect them, no joke, I can't even stick my leg out for fear of claws dragging me down and then something eating my eyes.

7. Know about "teh internetz". 4chan, memes, viral videos. Yeah. They all make me laugh, so it would be nice if they could join in (: ... I suppose this also applies to using emoticons, like all the faces you see in here xD I love those, so if you use those I love you :D ... and lolspeak. Become fluent in lolspeak. Also, a carry on from this would be; Type properly. At least when they're speaking to me over MSN/texts. I cannot stand text talk, it drives me crazy x_x so learn to type normally, or there shall be no MSN or texts xD [The exceptions to this rule are when you are using emoticons like the faces, or speaking in lolspeak ^-^]

8. Be able to sing / play an instrument... generally be creative. This stems from my love of music. I personally can't sing or play an instrument, so it would be great if they could ^-^ The instruments are specifically guitar and or piano. I love both of those instruments so much. Acoustic guitars are pure love. As are pianos. Yaaaay (:

9. Don't be too expectant. When I come see them, they shouldn't always expect hair and make up to be done. I'm really lazy when it comes to those things. I will try to make an effort but.. I won't always look glamorous xD of course I won't expect their hair to be perfect either. It goes both ways (:

10. Be confident. I like people who can walk into a crowd of strangers and talk to them like they're friends. If you can do that, then I already admire you. I also love being cuddled, so if they're willing to cuddle me in public, then that makes them 100x better (: [Also, this has a knock on effect. Being cuddled is only nice when the person is taller, so, all my boyfriends MUST be taller than me. Sorry.]

OMG guys, I managed to keep it to 10 points! Obviously, nobody is perfect, and I'm not expecting any future boyfriend to be without flaws. It would just be nice to have all of the above xD
And, as always, there are exceptions to the rule, so, we shall see.

You used to captivate me by your resonating light, now I'm bound by the life you left behind. Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams, your voice it chased away, all the sanity in me. These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just to real, there's just too much that time cannot erase...

-Rosa-xo

BUY MY WINDOWS

I HAVE A SONG IN MY HEAD. and it's making want to claw my face to get it out, and it needs to leave, I'm so tempted to like, cut my face and make it bleed out. Or pass out, whichever comes first.
- imagine me clawing my face whilst singing "IT'S COMING HOME, IT'S COMING HOME, IT'S COMING, FOOTBALLS COMING HOME" cause that is actually what's happening right now. -
I have noticed that adverts are annoying me a lot more recently, infact, they annoy me so much, I'm going to act one out for you.

-Me on the sofa, not really paying attention, staring off into space.-

-Man jumps from the side of my TV screen-

"BAM! HEY THERE, I'M HERE TO SHOVE UNNECESSARY INFORMATION DOWN YOUR THROAT ABOUT HOW OUR WINDOWS ARE CHEAPER THAN THE PEOPLE WITH A BIRD LOGO! YOU SHOULD GET OUR WINDOWS BECAUSE WHO KNOWS WHEN A RHINOCEROS BEING RIDDEN BY A VELOCIRAPTOR COULD SOAR IN THROUGH YOUR OLD WINDOW AND MAKE GLASS FLY EVERYWHERE AND PIERCE YOUR EYES AND MAKE YOU CRY IN A POOL OF YOUR OWN BLOOD AS IT TEARS ABOUT YOUR HOUSE DRAWING SMILEY FACES ON THE WALLS AND LEAVING A TRAIL OF PEANUTS, WHICH IF YOU'RE ALLERGIC TO PEANUTS WOULD SUCK CAUSE YOU WOULD TOTALLY DIE. BUT YEAH, OUR WINDOWS STOP ALL THAT, AND ONLY FOR £13,00000000 SO YOU MIGHT AS WELL DO IT, CALL NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW!"

-By this point, I am curled up into a ball, hugging my legs, my eye twitching whilst muttering the words "evil rhino velociraptor creature" over and over again.-

Yeah. I know it pisses you off too, don't lie to me. But don't worry, it's okay, I put on a cape and killed all the people who come up with those awful advertisements, and if you don't believe me I'll send you a finger in the post. You're welcome.
Whilst I was typing all that my dog decided he was going to bite the wall... I'm not sure why. I think a beam of light hit it from the sun on the window [irony?] and his dog brain decided that it was an evil creature here to steal his soul and it would be better for everyone if he sat there and bit the wall.
My wall is covered in dog slobber now.
"Ohai dere, I'm a doggeh and I iz not all here. I be slightly stupidz, but it'z ok, cause all your soulz are belong to me."
Yeah, we're fucked.

HI, I'M BARRY FUCKING SCOTT, 

AND I'M HERE TO FUCKING 

RAPE YOUR FUCKING FACE. 

ALL YOUR SANITY ARE BELONG TO ME.

That's another one of those adverts that makes me want to kill. A bloodthirsty, murderous rage.

And that is a Velociraptor. Don't pretend you don't love it. Go on, pet it. He'll just nom your hand a face a little bit.

Does exactly what it says on the tin.

Make records that have more than one good song, the dinosaurs will slowly die, and I do believe no-one will cry, I'm just fucking glad I'm gonna be there to watch it fall, prehistoric music industry.

-Rosa-xo

"And I was all like..."

My cat was sitting in my seat and he was acting like a sausage cat. I was all "Yo, cat, you need to move cause thats my seat and I wanna eat my toast there, so you need to move yo furry butt"
and my cat was like; "Naaaaah, today I'm gonna be a sausage cat, and I know I usually run away from you the moment you walk into a room, but if I become sausage cat all my fears leak away and I no longer feel the need to leg it from you"
So, not wanting to be mean to sausage cat, I sat on the floor and ate my toast.

So yeah, that was an interesting start to my day.

AND THEN I HAD A SPANISH EXAM WHICH I FAILED.

And on the way to my spanish exam my brain was all "I'M MELTING IN THIS STUPID HEAT"

So, yeah that was even less fun.

AND DURING MY SPANISH EXAM I WAS TIRED AND HUNGRY.

And my house smells funny.

And IT'S TOO HOT.

Picture to describe my life;

                                                  

I'm dying in the hot sun and my brain is leaking spanish.

Drawn by Allie at http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com go check her stuff out; she's hilarious.

So... yeah.

I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar, I've never made a bet but we gamble with desire, I've never lit a match with intent to start a fire, but recently the flames have been getting out of control, call me a name, kill me with words, forget about me, it's what I deserve.

-Rosa-xo

Carrot Sticks Aren't Yummy.

I'm gonna start eating more healthily.
And by healthily, I don't mean carrot sticks, because they're pretty gross. I like carrots, but eating them in stick form? No taa.
I decided to stop eating so much crap this morning when I was getting my breakfast, and I had to stop myself from pouring a glass of Pepsi to drink. You know you're addicted when its the first thing you want. You'll be glad to know I had orange juice instead.
I guess I was thinking about it because yesterday I was having a conversation about healthy food with Ems and Josh, rather ironically, as we made brownies. [The best brownies you'll ever taste; may I add. They had M&M's and sprinkles in and melted in your mouth omnomnom.]
But yeah, speaking to those two made me realise that I don't have the most healthy of lifestyles - the only exercise I get is walking to and from school and walking my dogs. Not a great amount.
And I suppose that wouldn't be too bad if I knew how to control my eating habits - but I don't. I eat when I'm bored, I eat my feelings, I eat if food is there. I can't stop myself.
I'll be watching TV and I'll suddenly get a craving for ice cream, and I'll have to go get some.
It's atrocious.
I used to eat really well as a kid. My Mum used to make sure every dinner had at least 3 different types of vegetables in, and I had to clean my whole plate or I wasn't allowed to leave the table.
That was back when I used to be skinny.
The moment I went to secondary school however, it all changed. I stopped cleaning my plate, I stopped eating my vegetables, I started eating more crap instead.
THAT'S WHERE IT ALL WENT WRONG!
So, I need to rectify this situation before I end up obese.
On a happier note, I'm on study leave now, thank god. I like sleeping in (:
I've done my first exam - RS - and it was nice and easy.
Things are going pretty good.
I've also found a new love for Adam Lambert.

It's a shame Joshes and Rias faces got cut off.

Yeah, it's plain to see, that baby you're beautiful, and there's nothing wrong with you, it's me, I'm the freak, but thanks for loving me, cause you're doing it perfectly.

-Rosa-xo

I'd Have To Shoot You; And No-One Would Hear A Sound.

Oh man, I haven't written a blog in ages. I'm not sure why... I suppose I didn't really have anything interesting to report.
I had my art exam. Our art teacher decided that when we only had 2 hours left he was gonna slag everyones work off. That was nice of him. He didn't like my piece but I don't care; as long as I get an overall C tbh.
That competition I entered in? Yeah.. I'm pretty sure I've lost it haha. I'm like, 8th. It's quite heart breaking really. It's everything I've ever wanted. ... Ah well. Maybe next time?
I was also supposed to go to a gig last night - Kill Hannah and My Passion - but I didn't. Fucking bummer. Two of my favourite bands :/
Still got Reading Fest and Green Day lined up though - so that's ok (:
I have 3 people that I need to sign my study leave card. One will do I just keep forgetting to ask... the other will do it when the other two have done it haha. It's the last one who's causing me a problem. Fucking maths teacher. He should go die the lying cunt. "Do 2 papers and I'll sign it." I'VE DONE ABOUT 4 YOU BASTARD.
Uuuuugh. I just want summer now; I don't care anymore. ><
What else has happened... Oh, we have the general election hahaa. That was interesting. Hung Parliament. Hmm. We shall have to see how that all works out, won't we?
Me and my friend Callum might be organising a gig; so that should be good.
We're trying to get a few local bands then one slightly bigger headliner. I'm not sure if it will all go to plan, so I'm trying to not get too excited about it.
Where's the sun gone? It was mega sunny a few weeks ago, now it's all back to rainy cloudy coldness xD
I get my hair done at the end of Julyyy (:
Purple and pink n stuffs. Not sure how I want it cut though. Hmmm.
COLLEGE. I can't wait. ^_^~
I also get the other side of my lip done soon (: Then I shall have two lip piercings :D
Yaaaay hahaa.
I'm gonna stick a picture of my art final piece in here (:

You can't really see it too clearly - but by the guitar it says "Words Fail Me" and then it's all surrounded by lyrics... I like to think it's very thought provoking hahaa.
Before you ask me what lyrics are there - there's a HUGEEE mixture, people such as; A Day To Remember, AFI, Yashin, Justice, Snow Patrol, Five Finger Death Punch, Set It Off, Jamie T, Mayday Parade, Cute Is What We Aim For, The Blackout, My Passion, B.o.B, Eminem... yeah and tonnes more but I can't remember who haha.
I really wanna watch a film. I don't know what one though hahaa. I don't watch many films really... My attention span isn't big enough. I get distracted and end up pausing it, then forgetting about it for a few hours, then when I finally remember again I've forgotten half the story xD
Yeah, I suck haaa.
I want to meet some new people. Anyone know nice people? I'd like to meet them kplzthx.
Still pissed off/upset about that competition. I really thought I had a chance. ):

Bruised and bloody, I'm lying on the ground, and I am aware that I let the poor girl down. Now I'm dying as a message to the town; this is what happens, if you fuck around. ... She said I'm a user, and she's a loser with a gun.

-Rosa-xo